Most people have questions about the meaning of life, our own purpose, and the nature of God, even whether there is such a thing as a loving God.
Whilst nobody but God can lay claim to having access to all truth, Christians take the Bible as being the foundation of our faith, and we also have the benefit of two thousand years of shared history and reason to draw upon. You might find some of these videos grapple with the same types of things that you have wondered about yourself.